My Eating Disorder Saved My Life

I know what your thinking oh god here comes a over the top emo rant about how no-one understands me
so i have to be skinny and vomit up my food
NO!
its cool mine is more about how i actually thank my fuckd up attitude to food for making me popular
EVERYONE LOVES A MESS

Thing you got to understand about me is that i am now vastly different to the person i was growing up :
Think . .

Fatter ,
No Style ,
Poor ,
Never Drank / Smoked ,
Played Video Games ,

only a few of my mates knew me during the messy transition phase of my master plan.
I started full stop not eating and smoking about 20 a day on top of working about 40s hours a week BAM! recipe for weight loss.

These teenage girls / gays who say they had no control over themselves its utter wank i knew exactly what i was doing and i did it well.
From skipping meals , not finishing them to when i go out drinking more than usually so i'd vomit to loose the cals or the booz haha. ( I Know CHILL OUT KE$HA )

Now to complete the transition start some epic shop lifting i mean hundreds in a day coupled with a few lines of coke to seal the deal . . . . perfect you now have a real mess on your hands .
It was so freakin weird i knew what i was doing was pure self-destruction but the need to look my best and make a name for myself over weighed any desire to be healthy.

I think thats why i find self-destruction in guys such a turn on, to me it means dedications and commitment to something if someone is will to almost kill themselves it must be for a good reason .
I can actually imagine myself with some tortured crack addict when im older they'll be slipping into an epic K hole and ill be making us diner "LASAGNE OKAY DEAR ?"

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hahahaha nah ill props end up in some old biscuit factory with no windows curled in a mess of a ball rapped in my fur coat. I really do think thats more lightly.
I think about this more and more as my moving date to london is creeping ever closer
what will actually happen to me ???

Sparky thinks ill do an Edie Sedgwick and be on acid by christmas with randomers stealing from my room to pay for me next hit (hmmmmmm sounds glamourous but acid . . . . really ??? )
O and Gleebo im pretty sure they think im gonna become some epic state of a cross dresser or something.

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Maybe the escort business is something to think about ?